For the second and probably not the last time those were the words out of my four year-old's mouth. I had been at school all day and had just gotten home about 5 o'clock. He was ready to go out back and swing and I have a test tomorrow morning at 8 o'clock. No matter what I did or said to convince him that this test was important and that I wanted to and would spend all day with him Friday and Saturday he just did not get it. I really do not blame him either. A lot of times I don't get it. Why am I pouring my blood and sweat into this seemingly meaningless acquisition of knowledge when my life is just passing me by. I am reminded of my uncle, a radiologist, giving me some advice prior to starting medical school that I shouldn't get so caught up in school that I miss the important things in life. I agree with that philosophy to a point for sure. When I get done with this whole ordeal of a process I hope I can say that I enjoyed a lot of it, I did not forget who I was or become someone I am not, and that I still know my family and they know me.
This is not to say that I won't miss soccer games or even birthdays, but I will find time for them and I will enjoy myself. I guess my grades are evidence of that to this point! I have not obsessed and worried over getting straight A's (even though I set out with that as my goal). I feel like all the testing we have done to this point really has only assessed my ability to remember what one lecturer said vs another. If you put me in a room with another student in my class with straight A's (and my meager B avg) I could do just as good clinically and probably even better on a social/personal level. My thoughts concerning all of this is that it will all come out in the wash during 3rd year. So many docs have told me that 3rd year is completely different as far as learning compared to the first two years of medical school. I can't wait!
I do feel comfortable now with the pace of med school and don't get quite as stressed when we get a bunch of new material. It doesn't make me overly happy when we get complicated material the day before the exam, but that is to be expected at this point. I would be shocked into a coma myself if they ever changed!!
